When I woke up this morning, looked outside and saw that it was raining, I knew what the day had in store for me. And that was a whole bunch of nothing.
Theres no good wasting time on recriminations; I accomplished jack poop today. My parents and I went to see Pirates because they hadn't been yet, and then after I hung around the theatre for an hour or so, I went home and wasted my evening. I walked the dog, messed with my guitar and then laid down to read for a few hours.
And I'm worried that this is how the rest of my life is going to be.
I am one of the newly-minted, overeducated, high-minded liberal arts majors that have been turning up more and more frequently lately. I decided that, instead of majoring in something useful, I'd major in something that I enjoyed. How much of that was a failing grade in chemistry talking and how much was personal integrity? Creative writing and literature have solved my problems before, why shouldn't they solve them again? That was before I realized that the last big problem my writing helped solve was a messy break-up.
I am, and will be post-graduation, stuck in the educational doldrums.
And this is weighing an incredible amount on my mind lately. What exactly do I plan to do with a creative writing degree? The obvious answer that I would hope for, is that I'll somehow become a famous writer. Someone will read a piece of my work, or come across this blog, love it, and boom, I'll rocket to stardom. Unfortunately, I have a better chance of spontaneously developing a case of Malaria than that does of happening. But we can all hope.
So what does a creative writing major do after college?
I guess my secondary goal would be to write for some kind of publication. Develop my thoughts into some kind of coherent form, discussing things that people actually care about, as opposed to my many blogs, which are only read by well-meaning friends who don't want to hurt my feelings. Perhaps I'm being too cynical; if so I apologize, but I feel like a psychic dinosaur:
I can see the future, and the future is extinction.