Something I've been very focused on lately is where I'm going with my life. I've been working at the bookstore for four years now and while I love it there, it's not my goal in life. I'm not insulting those who have decided to turn it into a career; it's just not right for me.
But what is?
My days off can be difficult. I find myself treading water. I'll get up, eat something and then disappear into the internet for a few hours. It's a disturbing place, set up to leech attention away from the viable and important. So after I do that, it's hard to get started. And then a day is wasted.
I've got to stop this.
To-do lists are something I do every day. Usually, it consists of pretty plain things: run, grocery shop, guitar, exercise. They are things that need to be done, yes, and they do give a sense of accomplishment. But I think it's a false sense. I'm getting stuff done but it isn't what I need to be doing. It isn't getting me any closer to moving along with my life.
That is what I really need right now.
I need an internship. I need an adventure. I need the outdoors. I need writing. I need something different.